all these precious moments...

thanks for your post, i feel very touched after reading it. it meant alot to me..


i'm sorry that i hurt you so much, i know apologising is no way of compensating the pain that i've caused. you know it torment me too when i heard your voice just now, i really dont mean to do this to you but i know continuing this relationship the ending will still be the same. Pls dont ask me why will i know, its not because i dont trust you its just that i understand myself too well.


you may feel that i'm very selfish because all i'm concern 'bout is myself, whether i'm happy right now or whether i can have my freedom once again. but thats not true. i made this decision is because i dont think i can bring you any more happiness. No doubt that my feelings is not as strong as before but i've always knew that you've been tolerating my poor attitudes and bad habits. i truely appreciate what you've done for me. sometimes i do hate myself for being such a jerk. however if staying together cant bring us more happiness i rather let go and move on.


okay i may sound nonchalant and cruel but this breaking up issue has been happening like dozens of times and i think its time to make a stop to it. Frankly speaking, i cant bear to do so and i really do love you.


Perhaps one day i'll regret this decision made today, but all i need is a moment by myself right now. i know i may never find someone that loves me as much as you do, treat me as well as you do. because you're the best that i can ever ask for and i've never regretted falling in love with you. we can choose to forget this whole incident but you know everything wont be the same anymore. i'll always remember the happy memories you've brought me and i believe my decision will do us both good.


one thing i need to let you know is my decision is not being influenced by anybody neither do i have someone else in mind. maxine and agnes do not even encourage me to give up this relationship, in fact they speak good words of you. so, i hope you will not misunderstand my friends' intention.


i think i sound too calm till i myself cant believe it. my heart is numb.






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