depress

hmmm.. cant slp well lately. in fact is i cant slp in e nites.. hai wonering wad is goin on in my life.. hasnt been reali happy or enjoy myself since holiday started.. i noe i haf been makin pple ard mi sad bout it too.. guess is i too long nv holiday alreadi lost dat kinda feeling liao ba. i cant even rem wad i did in my previous holiday which was ard 1 yr ago?? but i cant seem to find back e holiday feeling anymore.. feeling kinda aimless n loss lately.

wonder if i seriously nid a job to keep myself busy?? BUT i simply hate admin work u see. onli got recommends on admin work which is i dreaded most. how am i gonna go to work in e society in future. shall consider bout it if i'm desperate for job..

my cousin jux ask if i'm interested in working in ktv pubs. nah i guess i can never tk up dis kind of night life jobs. been quite some time since i last hang out outside as in chill n club or pub.. i need to destress. i need to find back e life i used to haf i guess.. or else i'll seems lyk a zombie everyday. i've been staying at home n its like i'm so bored till i can go mad. i'm those kind hu loves to stay put at home.. but i dread to go out as i noe i cant help myself frm shopping i reali dun wish to spend anymore money.. i'm declared POOR!! i noe i sound kinda emo. but cant help it in e middle of e night when no one is besides mi i start tinkin alot. the past the present the future.

i wish to find my aim now=happy.. i need to enjoy life. i noe i shldnt be not contented wif my life now wherby i got everything i wan.. BUT human can never be contented u see=(


Look at this.. my fav rainie+jolin.. cute+pretty

omg look at e freaky time now!! its 3plus and i haven slp.. haha jux help my boy finishing editing his report.. and my stupid com reali veri irritating. i've been re-doing it dunno how many times liao. till my headache..

i got stomach cramp and its killing mi le.. HATE IT!! my mood hasnt been veri gd lately.. haf been throwing temper at my boy whereas he is mo mo endurin it.. though he gets irritated at times. i'm sorry* haha i wish i can haf u by my side every moment yep=) haha. hasnt find a job yep i noe i'm damn fussy bout it.. but money is reali a headache stuff.. everytime i tot of having alot of MONEY i'm so happy. i can shop till i drop u see!! haha. soooo. conclusion: JOB=MONEY

shall be meeting him up tml cant wait for it.. yea* i gotta so rest le.. tata

Yep, finally done wif the blogskin. Em nth special but i jux wan a simple wan ll do.. its sorta pinkish omg.. plan to do smth purple-ish my all time fav colour.. but outcome still turn out to be more PINK.. lols. Shall change a better blogskin nxt time I'msick of it haha.

Today spend my whole day at hme leh.. haha. planned to go shop for furnitures and bed dis afternoon.. but then plan was -cancelled- in e end jux went to chose e closet colour and material los. Haha

My boy today got basketball competition. Haha.. I told him I'm his lucky star=) hehe. BUT he jux smsed told mi dat dey lost e match. CHEER UP DEAR! Hehe. I'm still proud of him cuz he's e 2nd scorer hees. He forbid mi to go watch e match ok.. haha. he said he dun wanna let mi c he play.. so bad!

Its holiday now.. I shld start finding job soon.. but I'm damn lazy.. how I wish I cant stay at home n shake leg lyk tai tai lidat.. omg. Haha. its time for mi to earn some money le. i wanna go on holiday wif my boy..

And I need to control my diet le la.. but I cant resist supper session everyday. its my fav hobby wif my boy.. I still haven go to HONGKONG CAFE.. u owe mi de ok?? Haha. but i'll become more BIG SIZE if dis continues..

Yep dis is one grp foto taken last 2 weeks. haha mish e girls.

Nevertheless i mish my boy.. haha. "xiao yang er" lols