i'm currently in the school library now. i'm supposed to be attending FI class but the lecture is such a total bore, Isabel ho seems to be teaching in her own world! so i left during break thinking of coming to the library to do some self-study while waiting for agnes to finish class. To my dismay, the studying area is freaking packed not even a single seat left for me.

btw i just took back my marketing mock paper, my result is wtf.

needless to say, i'd a long and sluggish weekend once again. i was hoping to have some individual time with linshaokang and i only managed to do so yesterday.

i dont understand there's always mismatches in life. someone that you probably need may not always be there for you. well, thats always happen to me. as it may be i tend to seek attention from others when i cant sought it from where it should be.

yes, i still presume that the good will never be rewarded or maybe karma doesnt really exits. I felt that i'm falling in deeper even though i'm constantly reminding myself that cirmcumstannes have changed. I've been giving excuses to myself that one day things will work its way out. Nah, eventually hanging up there will only bring about you dropping flat to the ground someday. i'm not as strong and nonchalent as i thought i were.

i know what are my priorities but i'm just sick of repeating this to myself kowing the fact that i'm so undisciplined.

perhaps when you're given with more options, life will be much happier. all i need is more assurance if not i dont know when i'll ever back out.

only the smart will go for the best.






Sugar by Flo Rida is awsome!

it've been quite some time since i have family day on Sunday haha.

this is a monotonous week again whereby i spent most of the days at home. i was home from monday to wednesday; attended school on thursday and stood me up:(

Friday was dinner at Toa Payoh Lor8 food centre with maxine, agnes, desmond and howa. Aftermath we chilled at the MacDonald at Pacifc Plaza.

Yesterday i had Waraku pasta at Marina square and caught this movie "Shinjuku Incident" at Plaza Sing with Desmond. We're supposed to have howa and the rest with us. Anyway, we were both not in high spirit yesterday. Well, i dont wish to elaborate on this.




It was a great movie though not much action scenes were involved. The idea why i watched this movie was because Daniel Wu was starring in it haha. And the Japanese Yakuza is freaking man.

One of my primary school tagged this photo of me in facebook.


Yes, i'm the one on the extreme left. I was quite chubby in the past and my hair was so short and nerdy haha.

Everybody keep mentioning about open-doors policy nowadays. I'm still trying very hard not to pin too much longing, anything can be a disapointment.






Haagen Dazz icecream:)

It was an unconstructive week AGAIN!

I swear i must buck up this upcoming week because time is really running out. I've like tonnes of consecutive revision classes for the next few weeks.

My statistics2 revision class sucks today because no notes was given to us. everything need to be copied from the transparency and you know my eyesight is very poor.

Fortunately desmond came to fetch me at about 3 pm and we drove to town for lunch and shopping. I had a total damage of near $150 today due to a Bebe top and a pair of m)phosis slippers. This gonna be the last time i'm gonna splurge before the exams. I've no time to dress up anyway.

I got home at evening time and it was quite a stunner that i didnt catch a wink of sleep before i met Aggy, Des and Howa for supper/my dinner at Bedok 85. It was a dramatic night whereby it nearly scare the shits out of us HAHA. Yes, a reminder to myself and any others: please restrain yourself from littering regardless of ciggarette buds, tissues or any visible items in the public. We (Aggy actually) nearly got fined just now. Luckily, Aggy and I requested for a second chance. She should buy 4D this week, god damn HENG!

Yesterday, we send Agnes to Dbl O before proceeding for our late dinner at ECP C-Nai Hk cafe at late midnight. I had an emo chatting session with Des at Tanjong Rhu for an hour. I came to realise i should really start planning for my future and set my priorities right. I apprehend that since young i always tend to place those not so significant stuffs before myself. Its time for me to be selfish and spare a thought for myself, I'm not speaking as though i'm a saint okay haha. And i'll try to cherish the things i have now even though the way ahead is uncertain.

Any blunder you made can never be turnaround.

Then on friday i'd dinner at Bugis before joining Agnes, rachel and the guys for mugging at Kallang mac. It was the first time aggy and i need not take the morning bus home because Des and Howa came to fetch us home Yeah!

I'm glad i've my happy pill back.





I'm totally jaded, time to hit the bed. Goodnight world :)

I made up my mind yesterday; change my mind today; and i'm not sure of my decicion tomorrow.


i supposed there are alot of things that can never be measured. i couldnt get the idea how some people can dont really bother about the past and only pay attention to the future. Its quite a tiring burden for me.


Been travelling down to school for 2days for our 6hours marketing revision class. It had been one week since i last saw my darling rachel. As usual, our fatigued lesson is made up by our updates to each others and some gossips. We headed home straight after school. you see how BORING our life is!


GONG XI FA CAI to Lolli Lolli Agnes :) hahaha.


xoxo,

I cant sleep.

Sometimes i feel that i cant really control my emotions well. Lately, i can be in high spirit at one moment and then emotional the next moment. And i do display it out. I used to be able to keep my emotions to myself by falsing a strong front and shutting off my mind away from those matters that i dont wish to think about. But now, i'm bothered by many things.

I'm really tired.

and pathetic too.







I don't wanna go to bed mad at you,
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me.

Zouk on wednesday night with Desmond. I was supposed to join Agnes and friends but i'm freaking lazy to get down early to queue up. We ended up chilling and drinking in Zouk enjoying Mambo HAHA. Lots of Whiskey Dry, JagenBomb, Guinness+Redbull make me throw up twice when i woke up the next morning. I seriously think my stomach is very weak.



Btw, i did attend school on wednesday morning though i was late for nearly 1hour. I cabbed to school lo!!

There's no job for this week. Well, actually i turn it down because the slot is very late- past midnight. I need to save up for my holiday trip but firstly i should curb myself from shopping online.

Yesterday, I didnt go for Ricky's chalet in Downtown East. At the end of the day, Caimin, Howa, Des, Daniel, Maxine and i had beancurd at Selegie before we drove to Caimin's cirb and chilled at the void deck for 1hour plus. But basically i was doing some catching up with max.

I'd MacDonald Hotcakes delivered to my doorstep (no,my house downstair instead) at 6am in the morning YEAH!

My hair is pissing me off everyday. I really need a haircut.



OUTZ

sian i've got school at 12pm tomorrow. DREAD.


but i really hope i can turn up for my stats class because i've never attend one single lesson before. i know this sound insane.


i'd newyork newyork for dinner at Citylink just now. we'd 2 complimentary drinks because the salad and appetizer that we wanted to place order were OOS?!


i've cravings for beancurd right now BOO.


i'm gonna download the rest of the episodes for gossip girls season 2 asap. i'm tempted to watch it.





xoxo